Thursday, August 29, 2013

My first story - "Getting a Nanny"

Well I said that I was going to post this story.  I hope everyone likes it.



Getting a Nanny
By Tabbi

My birthday was coming and my wife said she had a big surprise for me.  I was so excited and I couldn't wait.

The week of my birthday she told me to keep next weekend open and then asked if I could take Friday off.  I would have to check into that.

Thursday night when I got home, Rachel had dinner ready except it was for three instead the two of us. "Who's coming to dinner," I asked?

Rachel responded with only a chuck and "It's your surprise."

I was getting out of the shower and on the bed was a diaper, my baby dress, and plastic panties. Now I am getting nervous. "What's this for," I asked.

Rachel came into the room and said, "this is what you are going to wear."

My jaw dropped and fear hit me. "I'm not going to wear this for company."

Without a smile, "you are going to wear that or you will never wear that again around me!"

She told me to lay down on the bed so she could put the diaper on me.  I knew something was wrong when I felt her push something in my butt before quickly pulling my diaper up and taping is closed.  I figured she was trying to mess with my head.

I'm dressed now in my yellow baby dress that does not hide my diapers.  My nerves where on edge and I was panicked.  I didn't even know who was coming and she wouldn't tell me.

"Why are you doing this to me" I asked?

"I promise you that this is something that you want.  I have listened  to you for years telling me about what you think would make you happier.  Now, I am going to give it to you."

"But I am happy," worried about all the things I have told her over our many years of marriage and who was coming over seeing me like this.

Her response was "I know you are and so am I but there is a part of you that needs some attention that I can't provide.  Now you are going to get it.  Tonight you are going to meet your new Nanny."

Panic hit me!  We don't know anyone who is into this.  I asked, "is this someone I know?"

"No" with a pause and then she said "what fun would that be" with a big grin coming to her face. Then some words came out of her mouth that struck fear to my bones.  "You have no choice in this matter unless you are willing to give up your diapers and sissy clothes around me."

"What?"  I can't believe what she had just said.  Give it up?  This isn't a hobby.  This is a part of me.  What am I going to do?  She saw the fear on my face.

With a smile she said, "now it's time for you to wet your diaper honey."

There is a stranger coming over and she wants me to have a wet diaper on top of everything.  I tried to argue and instead of saying anything she went and got a wooden spoon. "No, I'm sorry!"

"I know you are but I think this will help you relax" she said with a grin.

She grabbed my hand and started to drag me to the bedroom.  I could resist if I wanted too and I did. 

"If you want to resist that is fine honey.  If you don't start doing as you are told you are going to loose all your baby privileges.  That is the last warning" she said to me with no smile on her face.  "Now come along."

 I followed her to the bedroom.  She had me lay across the bed on my belly.  That was when I felt the first strike. "Ouch!" I said.

She returned with "that is one. You have nineteen more."

"Nineteen" I said in fear.

That hurt I said and she responded with "it was suppose to."

Each one was hard like she was after something.  Half way through I felt tears starting from the pain.  Just then she noticed that and made the last ten hurt worst.  She was hitting me in the same place each time.  Now I was balling! My thighs were burning so bad.

"Now clean up your face and come back to me."

With that said still sniffling from the spanking I just got, I went to the bathroom and washed my face.  When I was done I went back to her in the kitchen and she just handed me three bottles.  Then I was told that I had to have each one done before our guest got there and for each ounce not gone would be five spankings.  I took them and went to the living room and sat on my blanket which was on the floor.

Rachel came into the living room to check on me.  "Are you wet" she asked as she reached down to check my diaper. Then with a serious look she told be I better finish that last bottle soon because Nanny will be here any minute.  Fear hit me, and then something else!  Oh no! Rachel stood back and grinned simply asking "what's wrong?"  As if she didn't know.  What caught me off guard what that she did not like poopie diapers so I would have never suspected that she would really slip a suppository in my rear. 

"You had better finish that bottle now before your Nanny gets here!"

I was panicked. Now someone I don't know is coming here and not only going to see me dressed as a baby girl but I am going to be wet and messy.  I tried to drink the bottle and hold back on the mess.  I didn't want to mess my diaper.  It became impossible to do both.  I was already really sore from the last spanking so I gave into the suppository.  I didn't have to help it, it just came.  Then I heard a knocking on the door.  I wasn't even done messing much less finishing the bottle.  I didn't win in either case.  I was so humiliated.

Rachel came into the living room escorting a younger lady that was beautiful.  "Here is your new Nanny" she said sniffing the air. I don't think  the smell made it to the air but she knew what had happened.  Before Nanny could even introduce herself, Rachel stepped forward looking down at me.  "I think someone may be messy.  Stand up honey so I can check your diaper."  I was ready to go to tears.  In fact tears really did start welling up.  As she had me stand up and turn around, she lifted the back of my dress and peeked in the back of my diaper.  "Yup, just as I thought.  My little sissy went poopie in his diaper"

At that point Nanny stepped forward with a big smile and chuckled.  "I guess you weren't joking about him being a big baby." She then pushed me down to the floor abruptly causing the mess in my diaper to explode all over inside it.  She bent down and put my bottle in my mouth noting how much was left.  She new!  "I am Nanny Nichole, but you can just call me Nanny."  She then continued saying that I will not address her any other way.  She finish with "your Mommy and I have some talking to do so you just stay here and finish that bottle."  She walked out of the room with Rachel.

I had tears gently streaming down the side of my face.  I have fantasized about this kind of thing so many times that it got old.  Now it is really happening and I am not sure I can handle it in real life. I finally finished the bottle before dinner.  I know there was going to be some more pain tonight.

Nanny came back into the living room holding a fresh diaper and pad just looking at me.  "Well, we may as well get to know each other and now is as good a time as any."

Before I could say a word she put my pacifier in my mouth and told me to keep it there.  Without hesitation she pushed me back so I was laying on the floor.  Then pulled my dress up and told me to hold it.  I couldn't see anything she was doing.  I heard the tapes of my diaper being undone and then felt the air hit me when she pulled my diaper down.  "Whew," she exclaimed.  "You stink so bad," and then she just laughed.  The tears started again.  The whole time she changed me she commented on each step.  And with that she also reminded me that I was a grown man dressed as a baby girl and I was having a messy diaper changed.  I was actually getting excited when she grabbed my dick and hit it with something and almost made me scream.  It hurt so bad.  And then it came again and again.  She kept doing it scolding me about getting excited about being an immature diaper wearing sissy.

Rachel came around the corner and said, "are you guy getting to know each other?" Then she told Nichole that dinner will be ready in a bit.  Nanny turned to her and thanked her with a smile as she pulled my diaper up between my legs and taped it closed tightly.  She told me to stay as she walked away.

I could hear them talking and laughing.  Nanny suddenly reappeared with a fresh bottle of formula.  She pulled my pacifier out of my mouth and replaced it with a bottle.  Then she walked away again.  As I laid there I was in overload.  Everything was happening so fast that I couldn't process it fast enough.  I felt stress and anxiety hit me.  Just when I felt like I was going to cry again Rachel came into the room to get me.

We went to the dinning room and one of the place setting where changed.  I knew exactly who that was for.  It was set with girly baby dishes and another bottle of formula.  I was really wetting my diaper now and constantly.  Rachel pulled out my chair and had me sit down and told me to sit on my hands and don't move them.  I did and she helped me scoot my chair in. All I could think was, "this is going to be interesting."    

Nanny helped Rachel bring the food to the table and I just watched.  Dinner smelled so good!  Then I was crushed again.  Nanny brought out jars of baby food and made sure I could see the labels. She said "if you want any of this really good smelling adult food you are going to have to eat your baby food first."  All I could think was I was going to throw up before I make it to the good food.

Rachel came back out with one of my bibs and tied it around my neck.  I know I was turning red.  Nanny just laughed at me.  I was still sitting on my hands and asked if I could pull the out. "No!" was the only response I got in stereo. 

They started eating and talked as if I wasn't there.  I was hungry but I didn't know if I was hungry enough for the baby food.  Then without warning Rachel grabbed one of the jars of baby food and took a little spoon and started feeding me.  She didn't give me enough time to gag over the taste. 

Nanny watched and then spoke.  "Rachel, why do you want to spend your life with such an infantile shell of a man?  Your sitting there feeding your husband baby food and he is letting you.  He is wearing a diaper which I am sure is wet again. Once again he is excepting this."  That was what she said while Rachel kept feeding me as more tears rolled down my face.

Rachel took my bib and wiped my messy mouth off and pushed the nipple of my bottle into my mouth.  "Hold it" she said.  I pulled one of my hands out and grabbed it.  "Both hands honey" came out. Now I was sitting at the table drinking from a bottle like a toddler feeling totally humiliated.

Rachel turned away from me and faced Nichole.  "We have been together for over twenty years and we both are as in love as the day we met.  He has needs that will never go away.  The doctor even says that.  I will take him any way he comes because I love him and when he is not in diapers, he fulfills my needs and desires.  I couldn't see my life with anyone else even under present conditions."  At that point they both just looked at me.

Nanny looked back at her with a smile.  "He does make a cute baby girl, doesn't he."  Rachel responded with "yes he does."

Nanny looked at me and then looked at Rachel.  Then she asked "does he know anything?"  "Nothing" Rachel responded.  Nanny looked over at me and said "then it is time to fill him in."  I couldn't believe what I was being told.  I figured that Nanny was some sort of Pro Domme who was doing Rachel a favor.  It wasn't the case at all.  Nanny had been looking for someone just like me to fill her needs just like mine need to be filled.  Come to find out that in reality this was an interview.  Rachel wasn't interviewing her, she was interviewing us.

After listening for a while and Rachel asked questions it was time to clean up.  I didn't ask any questions because every time my bottle became empty it was refilled.  I was really sick of formula.  Almost literally.

Rachel got up and told me to go and get my pacifier and come back.  When I did, she asked me to clean up while she and Nichole talked.  She took my bib off and put it on the table as they walked to the living room.

They sat in the living room and the first thing Rachel asked was "what is it you are looking for?"  Nichole just sat back relaxed and said "what I just found."  Rachel smiled back at her still not know what that was.  Nichole continued.  "Just like your husband I have a need to have someone like him under me.  The thing is I don't want to get married and I want someone who is still functional in life.  That was when I decided to look for a married couple that were stable but needed this part of their relationship to be filled.  I have been interviewing couples all over the U.S. giving myself six months to find what I am looking for without being hasty.  I have a month left and I don't think I am going to look anymore."

Rachel smiling like she always does but with a bit of a concern on her face.  Nichole noticed it immediately.  "What's wrong" Nichole said with a little of her own concern.  "Well I am still not sure how we fit in and even more how will it work?  You make it sound like you are not going to search anymore.  So why us?"  These where good questions.  Nichole looked relieved all of a sudden.  "I will answer your second question first.  I have met with many couples and not once did I feel anything more than a little sexual excitement during the interview.  Tonight was different is so many ways.  I can feel the love you two have.  I know that under that diaper he is a man that needs to be that as much the other.  What I like is that he is not a diaper wearing sissy and then a man.  It is the other way around.  I am not looking to be a therapist.  He is confident enough in himself that when we will be together it won't have to be pretend for a couple of hours.  It can be ongoing and real.  I feel that I can be an addition to your lives.  I know that helping him with this side of himself will help him give you more of your needs.  I will make sure of!"  Rachel laughed and said she had her work cut out for her.  Nichole continued, "to answer your first question now.  I am a professional photographer.  I specialize in architectural photography.  I have clients all over the world and I am busy enough that I can turn down work.  What this means is I can live where ever I want as long as there is a major airport near.   That is the how."

Rachel looked relieved not know what to expect for an answer.  Nichole looked up at the clock seeing that it was getting late.  "Now with all fun and games aside this is where your husband needs to be involved."  Rachel called and I came into the living room. "Are you done yet" she asked.  I took my pacifier out of my mouth and said just finishing.  Nichole then told me to go and change my diaper and put adult clothes on.  She also told me that I needed to get into an adult headspace regardless of the diaper.  I left the room and did just that.

In the bedroom taking off the dress I had all kinds of thoughts going through my head.  I was seriously horny from this evenings events.  I changed my diaper which really needed it and put on some exercise pants and a t-shirt.  As I went back to the living room Rachel said that Nichole liked scotch.  My face lit up and I asked her if she would like a small dram.  She smiled and asked what I had.  I told her and with a smile she said, "you are a real scotch connoisseur, aren't you?"  "Oh Yea!" I replied. 

Bringing her and myself back a dram of my oldest and finest I headed for my chair.  Rachel was sitting on the couch with Nichole.  I noticed that Rachel didn't have anything.  "Can I get you something also baby?"  With a smile she simply said "yes please."  I left the room to get her something to drink.

Nichole looked at her.  "Is he like that all the time.  Most men don't think about others like that."  She was wondering if it was an act for her benefit.  With a smile on her face that was all pride, "yes he is.  All my girlfriends are so envious of me.  He will go out of his was for others and is more than considerate."  "You are lucky" Nichole responded.

I got back to the living room with something for Rachel to drink and sat down in my chair the usual way; legs up and tucked to my side.  Nichole put the dram up to her nose and I could tell right now she was a real scotch drinker.  She then took a sip with her eyes closed.  When she opened her eyes, it was a face of sheer bliss. 

We had some small talk knowing that Nichole was trying to get me to relax.  Then the real subject came about.  She looked at me. "What did you think about tonight?"  She could see me analyzing it.  "I don't really know.  It was in such an emotional overload that I couldn't really think about the experience." 

"Did you like it?"

Knowing how turned on I was all I could do was smile with embarrassment and say yes.  She proceeded to tell me everything she told Rachel taking a sip of her scotch every once in awhile and pausing to savor the moment.  Then opening her eyes letting go of the moment she looked over at me and simply ask "would you like this to become a regular part of your like?"  I looked over at Rachel stunned by the question.  She could see my puzzled and concerned look over the question.  She said "it's ok baby.  She and I have done a lot of talking so don't be worried about your answer or the situation."  I looked over at Nichole and said "yes I really would."

"It is late and I am going to ask you that question one more time tonight.  When you give me an answer, that is the one I will except."  I was confused and she just grinned in a way that made me nervous.  We continued to talk about stuff other than the purpose for her visit. 

"Well, it is getting late and I haven't gotten a hotel yet. So we need to end this evening."  I was just getting ready to be a good host and invite her to stay at our house, when all of sudden she stood up and looked at me with a stern face.  "Take those pants off now" in a loud stern voice.  "If I recall you had seven ounces left in your bottle when I got here.  Now it's time to pay up."  Rachel got up, moved the coffee table and sat in my chair.  I was terrified.

Nichole told me to just stand there as she started to head out of the room.  As she walked by me she felt the front of my diaper feeling how soaked it was.  Her look was that of disapproval.  She came back into the room carrying a small pink wooden paddle.  "Remove your diaper!" Without delay I did it standing there in total fear.  She sat down in the center of the couch and instructed me to lay across her lap.  Without a warm up she hit me with that paddle.  I let out a yell and I thought I was going to have to push my eye's back in my head.  Then came another and another.  She was hitting me so hard I was screaming and crying.  Rachel walked out of the room and suddenly I was worried about her.  Then my focus was changed back to the pain.  She paused a bit and rubbed my butt which was more than on fire.  I laid across her lap sobbing out loud. I noticed the presence of Rachel walking back into the room when suddenly my head was yanked up and a pair of wet panties were stuffed in my mouth and taped in.  Before I could process that my head was pushed back down and it began again.  I still screamed in pain but all you could hear were muffled sounds.

It came to an end and the panties were removed.  Nichole gently eased me onto the open floor where Rachel was already sitting and Nichole came down too.  I cried and cried.  I know that I was crying from the intense pain but there was more.  The two of them holding me, all I could feel was a rush of emotion. The tears were coming from somewhere else inside me.

I had finished sobbing and was just laying there.  Rachel got up and went to the other room returning with a diaper and nightie.  Gently Nichole, who now was Nanny in my head rolled me onto my back.  Rachel slid a fresh diaper under me and put lotion on my bottom.  It really hurt.  Then pulling the diaper up and taping it closed, she leaned over and kissed me saying "I love you so much."  Nanny leaned over and kissed me on my forehead.  Then quietly and peacefully she asked, "do you want this to be a regular part of your life?" Rachel grabbed my hand with a smile.  "Yes please."  Nanny smiled and kissed me on my head again.

I finally had my whit's about me again and I was back into a more mature headspace.  "Nichole, why don't you stay here.  It's a long drive into the city and it's late.  We have a spare bed and it is already made."  Rachel agreed.  Nichole thanked us and excepted.  She then turned to me and said, "it's Nanny to you for now on." I blushed and her smile got bigger.  Rachel laughed because she wasn't use to seeing me blush.

As we all said good night I felt like a certain part of my life was about to be even more fulfilled and it was going to be interesting to say the least.  I laid in bed with Rachel's head lying on my chest I emotionally said "thank you."  She looked up to me and said "I love you so much," and we kissed each other good night.  I fell asleep only thinking I was the luckiest guy in the world."  






Thursday, August 15, 2013

Can't get enough.....

I finished editing my story and now a friend of mine has it. One of my alter ego's is a two year old.  After 30 years out of school my grammar probably looks it.

I work out of town during the week so I don't get to see my wife til the weekend.  We don't like it but it's work.  I sent her a copy of the story.  Although the story is fiction there is a lot of underlying reality in it.  I hope she handles it OK.  She is totally excepting of me and my obsessions, but I also take thing to the extreme and she is a women who wants her man.

It was my birthday last week for real.  Her gift to me was taking me to the local dance store and buy me a leotard, tights, and tutu.  It was funny because the sales girl asked her if they were for her.  I couldn't believe it when she said with no hesitation, "no, they are for him."  We all had fun with it.

I will say that I am a man with an athletic build.  I does take away from my own self image as a sissy.  So if you have wide shoulders, 1x leotards aren't enough.  I looked like I was sumo wrestling myself trying to get that thing on.  So I am going to end my thoughts with a picture from my birthday.

It's really funny because I am one of the people that doesn't have to hide this part of myself, yet I feel alone still with it.  We all have to balance ourselves between reality and fantasy.  Sometimes that is just so hard.

Enjoy,
Tabbi                            

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Inspired by Karen Singer

I have never Blogged before because there wasn't anything that inspired me enough to write about it. 

Last weekend I finished reading the story by Karen Singer named "The Bet."  I grew up with ADD before it was called ADD.  With that said, reading for anything other than information was not something I did.  Not even in school would I read the books assigned. 

Last Saturday I finished reading "The Bet."  I read it in every bit of the spare time I had. I finished it in two months.  Anyone who has read it knows how long it is and how great it is.

Karen wrote as if she was pulling visions out of my head.  It turned out that I became obsessed with the whole story line.  I felt so many emotions I never had felt from reading.  I feel like I lived those two months in the story.  When I finished it, I was kinda sad.  I didn't want it to end. 

Karen stated that there will be no sequel.  After spending four years writing a story I can understand the need to get away from it.  I only hope she changes her mind.  For fun I mapped out the ten month between the end of the bet and their house warming party.  Who knows, maybe I will become a good enough writer to do something with it someday. I know it wouldn't hold a candle to Karen's writing ability.

So, I wrote a short story myself.  It's called "Getting a Nanny."  It is somewhat in the same context of "The Bet" only because that was my world long before I read "The Bet."  I have never written a story before.  I have a creative mind just never had the focus.  Thank God for med's.  I do plan on posting my story here.  I know the grammar needs a real going over and I will do that before I post it.

I am fortunate that my wife of twenty five years knows about all of me and has for years.  We are still best friends and still in love.  I am lucky. 

On occasions she will bring my two year old baby girl out for a weekend. Talk about letting go of stress. She is not a dominant person so I don't really have an outlet for humiliation but I guess we can't have it all.

My goal on this first post is to share some of my creativity when it happens and make some friends.  I would especially love to get to know Karen.  I have to say she is an inspiration to me.